Wannabe

21 again !

hmm. you ask why ? welll.. to begin with, i think 21's today are having so much more fun :-))
Naah, not just that just random thoughts and wondering if somewhere we are losing out to these 21 and 22 year olds.
There is always this time when you are so categorically slotted as early 20's or late twenties, sad to say, think i have transitioned into the latter now.
Got news early in the morning today that I have become an Aunt :-) Am really happy, i am ...but Aunty ?? Am i really ready for that ? Do i really want that ? And don't even get me started on this cousin sis of mine who got married years ago when I couldn't even decide whether I could dare to wear glossy lipsticks or not !! And now, she has a kid too .. Did i mention that she is even a few months younger than me ??
Then spoke to my brother in law (would be), he has already started calling me bhabhi ! I mean its sweet and all that, but really bhabhi ? Am i really ready for that ? ?
Scares me to no extent thinking about all these added tags that I seem to be procuring in life, gone are the days when I would just be rads or even didi, now there is a whole new generation out there !
They say guys are usually scared about settling down as they feel they will lose their youth, boy o boy, do i empthasize with that !!
mmmmpppfffffttt !!

Anyways, coming back to the 21 year olds, yesterday was chatting with this old friend and he was saying how there are a whole bunch of these young nubile babes in my old gang now. I have nothing against them really, but I was just thinking the guys are the same, the gang is the same.. how come this new fascination for 21 year olds ? I have always been the youngest there, so needless to say, all these are much older guys and they are all seeing really young college girls !
I dunno, maybe i am becoming old coz 21 sounds too young to me and when I think of some girl who's 21 I can only imagine them as air heads and confused as hell..
But no, get this, they are all gushing about how the babes are soo cute and matured and the best part is that they bring even more cuter girls from their college everytime they go out !
I mean, grow up ! I know almost for a fact that at 21 you are not matured, i mean you are almost not meant to be matured :-)))
But naa. things are changing, i have been told that I am becoming old and boring and get this..I am just 25 :-))

Need to be

catty !!
Ever felt the need to be bitchy ?? I did today... was watching my current fav series s** and the city and related to all that cattiness :-)
I miss that in my life right now. For whatever it was worth, i had a great time being 22-24 with all the girls with all those saturday session breaks. Those were the times when secrets were let out, nasty, good or bad ! Counseling sessions, consoling each other over heartbreaks, screaming at each other for mistakes we made (they really costed us a lot you know and we made many !). Discussing things, people and relationships that changed our lives.
Understanding each other or at least trying to and most of all, loved all those bitching sessions and being catty.. poeple thought it was attitude, some even thought bad attitude but what the heck ?! Couldn't really care less..
Yeah, do miss that time. and know what.. Nish, miss you a lot..

Love is all around me :-)

Aah, work wise a shitty day as usual but other than that something to keep me chirpy today !
A dear friend seems to be in .. you know.. hmm love and all that jazz :-))
But seriously, I am happy beyond belief, that mail was probably the single most bright spot in my otherwise dreary life and monday morning and such :-))
Not too many details yet, all shush hush stuff but yeah, there are words like these in the mail:
a. Aag donon taraf barabar lagi hai
b. Hai, meri hi nazar na lag jaaye :p

:-)) :-)) I havent stopped smiling really ! Am really happy for this guy !! Nut case that he is, hope evreything works out just peachy for him :-)

b*i*t*c*h

:-)))

I know so many people who will agree with me when i say this for more reasons that one (some just coz they like to think that way :p ) but honestly, I mean really .... women in power can be super bitches ...

:-)) I know I am not even saying it like a bad thing, the female ego inside me does not allow me to. But yeah, I know a lot of people do feel the same way and have many unpleasant experiences to justify this.

I have this lady at my work who almost qualifies to be the queen of my blog title. But on the other hand, I have also seen her getting work done which her male peers have struggled to accomplish. She gives people a hard time being a perfectionist and almost non-tolerant but at the end of the day does she get what she wants ? Yes !

So, then is it a good thing ? hmmmmm... :-)

Kylie

:-)) (for the title)

The reference being, how sometimes you can't get someone out of your head !
Something triggers your memory, could be a song or even something someobody said and boom, you just can't get the person out of your head !

Arrrggghh ! Not liking this at all....

Hmm..

I know I haven't posted anything in a while. Its just been way tooo hectic here. Lame excuse I know :-)
Been too wrapped up in work and personal life. Can hardly believe that in less than 10 days I am out of here. Feels good in a way but also know that I will miss these times. Miss all the new people who came into my life, miss the time spent being 'independent'. Spent all those lovely weekends in Portland :-)
So many memories that will remain with me forever.

Somebody said

friends who could have been more
friends who were more and decided to be less
friends who are reconsidering whether to be more or less

Cat

Yup, I think thats the animal i resemble the most !

Sulekha

There have been times off late when I have really not liked sulekha ! Mainly coz of the quality of stuff being put there, attitude of people posting anything there an the kind of material put up there among other things.
But sometimes on days like today, ran across 2 blogs which really touched my heart for whatever reasons and I realized that these kind of posts can only be blogged in a forum like sulekha and there is a reason it’s become the way it is. I mean, I used to think that (maybe still do) people take it as a forum to vent their frustration and heartbreaks which is partially the reason I knocked off my srticles from there. But read articles by Fizo an Meetu today and was wondering where else do u find people who want to share their most personal feeling and not really vent anything because maybe they r not bitter about it. I don't know how to explain.. Hmm...
But something in both those 2 blogs really touched my heart strings today.